Lost Direction (Art Reflection)
{UPDATE: I revisit this post and I would like to apologies if this has been a bit sad/negative, I was in an awful situation when I wrote this. But as for the future of this account, I may still keep it for a while and post art while I figure out what I really want to do with it. Most artworks here are no longer backed up so this account is definitely a big documentation of my works throughout the years. }
Hi! Everyone, it's been a while since I wrote a journal. Admittedly, I have lost my interest to continue this account because I'm not sure in which direction I will be taking this.
I remember back in 2012-2013 when I made this account, I came from playing on the Neopets website and I've became fond of drawing my own OCs. Sometimes I make random free use line arts to that hopefully I get more watchers who will be interested in my free stuff (and I'm genuinely still happy seeing my old wonky lines still being used even offsite). I used love following new artists and commenting on their posts and meeting new friends.
Around 2014, I created my still mascot, Palette. And that grew my love to make random species and characters. I'm also quite of a quirky teen back then and looking back on my artwork's descriptions, there are some comments that makes me cringe now haha. I recall being active in DA back then, doing pixel arts, simple animations and shiny artworks.
Around 2016, I got drawn in making free open species(again, I like making free stuffs haha) and also made a few closed species. Playing Neopets during HS, I'm always interested in creatures and world building. Foxponds(already belongs to someone else) started around 2017(?) and is one of my fairly popular species; my deepest regret for them is not being able to be fully committed as I've been stressed out in college. I've also realized that around college I had depression which I'm still coping right now, so I have not been too active here since then. A lot of things changed really, I've become too shy to comment on people's work and have become less cheerful. I still do art though, I mean my major is also art related; that's why I can still post here.
Currently, I'm more into just making artworks, but mostly offsite. And other art related like comics and plush isn't linked with this brand anymore. I guess it's the same with most social media that any downtime will really make a massive effect in your account's growth. This account has recorded my directions and mistakes in my art journey that I'm not sure I want to keep. Plus, I don't know if I still have friends here since I rarely talk to them anymore, or probably they have already left the site as well? Do people still look at this account?
This account is probably around 9 years ago, and I still look at it from time to time. Perhaps there's a sense of nostalgia surrounding it. I've been tempted to delete this account, since it's slowly becoming a shell(in my own perception). I always ask myself, maybe it's time for a new beginning(?), then again, this is X amount of artworks I've probably never have a back up of, it's X years of a documentation of my art journey.
Sorry if I rambled a bit, hope I don't sound complain-ish. Honestly I feel like I am at lost in my journey but I have to keep on going as this has been sustaining me financially RN, but with being lost, the path has been terribly rock-y along the way.
Logo Commission Info
I've been noticing people commenting on my past logo commission post years ago, unfortunately it doesn't reflect my current prices for them but I am open to make them for anyone interested. Here's an updated pricelist for my logo:
*prices are for personal use logo(youtube vids, art, etc) For commercial use(business brand, shop, in the sense that you may print it with your merch), shoot me a message first.
*my logo is usually an icon type, but I can recommend a commercial free font to mix with the icon if needed.
Simple Logo
$15-$20
a simple, max two colored design. Blends in most artwork especially in a black & white variant.
Complex Logo
$20-$30
more than two colors, more details detailed icon.
All logos will be given an .ai and .png format.
+Cover Layout
I can also make a layout for you with the new logo(either for youtube, fb, etc) starting at +$20
Feel free to shoot me a note if interested. For any question, you can also comment below in this post.
:Creature Shop(Artdolls for Sale):
You may also check out my doll account PK-Creatures for more images of them!
No of currently available for adoption: 4
(click on respective photo to see price)
Free character sheet upon request:
For users who plan to use their dolls as an OC. See sample below!
Adopted Out!
Creatures who've finally found their new owners <3
The fireworks initially looks great but I think the last part was a "bit strong" whereas the loud sounds and bright lights made me 'scared' resulting to me continuously screaming and heavy breathing until my friend finally calmed me.
I never experienced that in a fireworks before, and even in horror movies my usual reaction would just be being startled. I mostly scream as a result in having breakdowns from some thing. My initial diagnosis(during screening) was depression, is that a factor of that behavior or is it a more common thing(hopefully)
For people who are wondering why I am posting it here rather than asking a professional is because I'm already scheduled to see one around January, so I had to wait til then and it just got me curious and paranoid at the same time. I don't really post something like these to my RL social media as I'm always afraid of people I know that may judge me.
Honestly Im scared from that experience. Most of the time people judged me from my unusual behavior similar to that and it's really uneasy for me not knowing the proper reasons.
:Foxponds Turnover:
I'll finally be officially turning over the
to 
There were a lot of potential candidates during the process, I did not even expect there were a lot of interest in this subject(thank you guys!) , everyone all has amazing ideas and I wish all of them could be implemented
Honestly the reason why I wasn't able to do this immediately because I'm always the person who's afraid of rejecting/saying "no" to someone, hence I wasn't able to message back to most after I chose 2 final candidates(hope you guys understand), but I did make sure to check all ideas out.
but I decided to go for a person I could trust since she had helped me a lot in organizing the group back then. Hopefully the vision I see for the foxponds to be active again may come true.
What's next for Paws? I've been recently drawing again,developing my painting style. I don't think I will focus on closed species anymore but may probably just be active in another species group. Aside from art, I will still do design adopts from time to time.